"Be Water"

Water is not rigid

Water has no agenda

If it stops flowing water will stagnate

Water gives and never asks for anything in return

Water molds and adapts to any surrounding

Our bodies are made up of mostly water. This has been a practice taught for centuries in eastern religions. Become water and move into the way

By July of this year there will be an estimated 6,790,062,216 people in the world (Thats not a made up number either I got it from the census website.) My point for bringing this up you ask? Well I had an epiphany today. As usual whenever I have a bad day I start thinking, and I was thinking that of those over 6 billion people in the world, you have the exact same amount of experiences, and not one of them being the same! There are no two people where you could say that they had the exact same experience going through life, even if they were together for every single moment together (like some people are I guess, conjoined twins comes to mind).

I find it funny though that out of all those people....not a single one of us knows what the fuck is going on. You may think you do, but you really don't. But think about it that's 6 billion ego's walking around injecting themselves into each other. I guess my point is that...people you meet everyday are casting judgements on you right off the bat. People you know have their idea's about you and the way you live your life too and if you go around trying to convince everyone to think of you the way you'd like them to think off you there's no point. It's not weak to give up sometimes because here is a prime example, GIVE UP. Things about you are being swirled around by people everyday and most of those people haven't a clue. It's kinda like the internet....once you put something out there, it's pretty much impossible to change it or to get it off. But the thing is that the assumptions/judgements/aspersions that people are placing on you have nothing to do with you and everything to do with them.

Thats why I brought up experience before. You've got over 6 billion experience's who don't know what each other's is like and they're all casting judgements on each other (mostly). I hope I made sense in what I was trying to get across. Im just frustraited with people giving me their 2 cents all the time and people casting judgements on me. I hate to use the stupid cliche but I should just stop carring what people think of me. Im sick of being told to open up and then pretty much to shut up when I do. Im sick of people having to fluff up their ego's infront of me everyday, like a peacock trying to impress a lady peacock. Im not impressed, stop puffing your chest out infront of me, fuck off. Cause thats all it is, it's just fluff, and I can tell when it's just fluff and it's annoying.


"Most of our lives are spent reasurring each other that our ego's are on straight" - Ram Dass

"People who always have to tell you that they don't care what other people thing are desperate for you to know they don't care what other people think" - George Carlin

I don't know if those quotes are exact but I think they are

PHENWAY!!

Phish kicked off their first summer tour in 5 years last night at the great Fenway Park and what a show it was! Starting off the night on the pitchers mound with the star spangled banner sung acapella, the boys had a great concert in store for everybody. The night was full of first time played songs, songs rarely played, classic tunes, spacey jams and blow out covers! They are really starting to get the feel for it again and if this is just them working out the kinks then this summer tour is going to be insane. To top it all off Trey is clean and sober and his tone sounds amazing, he definitly has the compressor back in his rig and doesn't have that nasty dirty raunchy sound as he did post hiatus. Don't get me wrong I liked some of the dirtier stuff but that sound did not work with alot of their stuff, not at all. All in all I have high expetactions for this tour and it's only a matter of time before they really go in a new direction and blow us all away (look up 97 funk) as long as it's not in some techno direction, I will never listen to them again if they do that crap. Please don't become some Techno wank meaningless p.o.s jamband. Im sure they won't but just the thought of that would be horrifying. You can download Fenway at www.livephish.com , it's only 10 bucks and well worth it. Or try and find a free audience recording but they sound like shit, I would recomment getting the soundboards.

R.I.P Leroi Moore 1961-2008

I know it is a little late for this but I just wanted to do my little tribute to Leroi Moore, the saxophonist from Dave Matthews Band who died on August 19th 2008. The late sax player died in the hospital from complications from an ATV accident he had outside his Virgina farm. He will be GREATLY missed by everyone who he touched with his beautiful solo's. The sounds that man would create are nothing short of godly. He could play a penny flute, flute, tenor sax, alto sax, barry sax, and a number of other instruments, such talent. There will never be anyone like him. Increadible guy who left an increadible legacy.

Of Fungi and Foe

"Of Fungi and Foe" is the title of Les Claypool's new solo album that I just bought today. The album is a compilation of songs that Claypool was commissioned to write for a video game called "Mushroom Men" and movie called "Pig Hunt." If you like Claypool's work and have 15 bucks I would recommend getting it. It's full of softer claypool grooves but still has his signature style.

Sensationalised TV

I'm feeling myself more and more being turned off by the rest of the world. I don't watch much tv to begin with...mainly when Im eating or something but I think Im just gunna give up tv all together. I can't stand the crap on it anymore. I can't even stand looking at people's faces on tv anymore. I can't stand the commericals, the hype, anything. It's amazing that something so hyped up can be the most boring fucking thing in the world. I can't understand how people can watch this crap anymore.

Im still very much an angry child

It's a very simple formula, Adam = Mad at the world. I don't know how I got this way and I don't care. I hate the world and everything about it. I hate it's little system, I hate the bs that comes with it, I hate it's little games and I don't want to play them! I never asked to be put on this planet and play the game, so why am I here! There's nothing even that I could get out of the game that I want! So why am I playing!? WHY?! For what purpose?! So I can have a place to live and money and things? Ok so I play the game so I can atleast have a place to live, now why do I have a house?! WHY!?!?!? It doesn't make sense to me. I don't want to do it anymore or have anything to do with it! I just wana be left alone! I can't stand the world and the people in it. Just F off. I don't wana "get ahead" or "be something" I just want to live! Just let me live and do my thing and leave me the fuck alone. Take your smug statements and your snob nosed life and shove it. And leave other people the fuck alone while your at it. If someone wants to be a truck driver or something like that then good for them! Just because your college educated doesn't make you any better then someone who is not so fuck you. And fuck the man too. I hate how this world is run, I can't stand it anymore. I can't stand how people are constantly taken advantage of by other people it sickens me. I don't see the point in any of this! Take your money and stuff it down your throat cause I don't want money, or things, or a family, or anything. I DON"T CAREEEEEEE. I have no motivation to "become" anything because I don't see the point. Play the game to get things and then....what? IT's just a life to nowhere, where your trapped in this cycle of paying bills and going to work and making money and on and on and on. So what do I get out of being caught in the system when there's nothing I want? I need to go to bed my head hurts